where can I find the ArcGIS 10.41 desktop download
Go to my esri by your avatar, there is a help link and direct link there https://my.esri.com/#/
Building on what Dan said, go to https://my.esri.com/ , log in.
Go to My Organizations
Click Downloads, and from there, you should see the 10.4.1 download section:
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